its gonna be alright

yea so college is gonna suck..



oh do i miss you so ..

and you know who you are
you are the love of my life
the boy of my dreams
the keeper of my heart
my best friend
youre everything i want
and everything i need
i love you monkey face head
i <3 twitch

Current Mood: i miss you

:P i dont know..

since when does anyone have the right to tell me that i deserve better?
especially when they wont take the time to get to know the one they say i shouldnt be with..
ok so look at it my way before you go and tell me that i deserve better ..
i love my boyfriend .. not just a little but a whole BUNCH .. he loves me .. and yes im pretty darn sure that he means it when he says it .. yes we fight .. we fight about stupid stuff .. up until recently we rarely did .. we're getting back to that rarely fighting thing .. and so what we hit a rough spot in the road .. WHO DOESNT?!?!?! .. and so what if hes a little immature at times.. I DONT CARE.. did you ever stop to think . . I wonder if it bugs erika .. or if she likes it.. well people the answer is no it doesnt bother me .. i love his immature self .. it makes everything more fun .. and yes hes a little crazy at times .. but who isnt .. and cant i decide if i deserve someone or not .. geez im not just some stupid girl looking to get hurt .. if i was i would have let this one go a long time ago .. but this one makes me happy every time i look at him .. he doesnt have to say anything at all .. im crazy about him .. and i can feel it in the way he hugs me that he wants to stay ..i love him and theres nothing you can do to change that .. so for all you stupid people out there who will or have told me that i deserve better .. i think that that is for me and me only to decide so shut up

darn all the good memories

i see the color in your eyes they set me free they get me high..

it feels good to feel the way i feel about you love
happy only begins to explain what you do to me
its probably possible to explain i just havent quite come up with a way to do so.. other than..
Im so in love with you

you made my cold black heart live

and i thank you

..You start a fire inside that i could never control..

so youre friends with a guy then you date this guy then it ends then you dont talk then you miss him then you do talk then you dont..
is this an on again off again kinda thing
or is it really just not really there anymore

.. i cant stand it .. i make this look like its not one of those "the telephone works in both ways" things .. but thats exactly what it is ..
ugh .. i cant stand this

friends forever .. are they real
true love .. what do you think..
soul mates .. do they really exist..

how do you know whos with you till the end or are we all destined to find someone new every few years? are we supposed to keep someone as long as forever or are we supposed to be alone forever
and if we are destined to have a soul mate .. true love .. and at least one friend forever .. how do we know when we find them ..
i thought i found mine but now .. im not so sure .. yes i am asking for your opinion

i really cant explain it but i hear the music when i look at you.

orchestrating the song to accommodate the moment

well im so in love with

ill take a chance and steal away this movie moment

im in deep whenever im with you

im directing the scene that has you and me forever

well im so in love with ..

Current Mood: happy

..theres something that i cant quite explain ..

                     ..Im so in love with you ..

Current Mood: calm

its like the way it smells right before rain the way the sky looks when its cold and the way if feels when the wind blows on a day that isnt cold but isnt hot at the same time
dont ask me what im describing ill never tell you..

Current Mood: calm

so erika what are you going to do with your life? they ask .. well i dont know..
and im sick of everything i do being blamed on my friends its like they think i dont control my own actions or something.. whats with that .. i totally did it because i wanted to there is no other reasoning behind it just simply because i wanted to and thats all .. i didnt do it because its trilling or because of peer pressure .. and i didnt do it because i smoke pot or drink when i do it.. i do it because i want to and that is all .. is that so hard to believe?
and since when does my world revolve around my boyfriend .. i mean come on yes i love being with him but my god im not that boycrazy to go run around and listen to what he wanted me to do..
sorry but i never get that involved..
and why is it that everytime you try to do something nice for someone it just bites you in the butt?
this is the last time i try to be nice..

Current Mood: calm

Like a star without its strings,
I'm hanging here on these two wings.
For that smile and those eyes...(I'm falling)

If time could stop, how could I make this more poetic?
When there's nothing more pathetic to be said...

You bring me out, show me light,
I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside.
You carry through, you make me smile.
If it were you and me tonight,
I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you,
For you...

If you ever had the chance,
Would you make your life seem right?
Or would you only hold it back,
The good times, the hard, and the bad.
Whatever you say is alright,
Just as long as there's no doubt.
Could you look me in the eyes...(And say hopes died)

If time could stop, how could I make this more poetic?
When there's nothing more pathetic to be said...

You bring me out, show me light,
I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside.
You carry through, you make me smile.
If it were you and me tonight,
I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you.

Current Mood: calm

what else could possibly go wrong ..

Current Mood: sad

i feel like i should start smoking ..

Current Mood: confused

hmm .. ...

 you make me want you.

An open invitation to the dance,
Happenstance set the vibe that we are in,
No apology because my urge is genuine

hmm i love this song .. but what the heck does happenstance mean .. for those of you who are like me and would like to know.. ill find out..

Happenstance: Noun
A chance circumstance: "Marriage loomed only as an outgrowth of happenstance; you met a person" (Bruce Weber).

ok so now that thats all cleared up ..

um anyway im kinda bored and i wanna be somewhere else right now.. i think i should clean my guitars .. and my play with them a bit .. maybe later ill plug in my electric and play with the headphones on so i dont bother my parents cuz theyll make me turn it off and go to sleep .. im kinda tired right now but whatever maybe ill fall asleep sometime tonight and have a few dreams ill be able to remember .. im kinda hungry and i want mountain dew .. not that you care .. but whatever .. i feel like im missing something .. i dont know what the heck it is .. but whatever it is i miss it .. and i kinda feel like i should be sad .. dont ask i dont know.. maybe i should just go to sleep ..

the rise and fall of my sloppy love smatterings and splatterings theyll get you ..

You've got a taste for danger
It turns you on

Current Mood: calm

Your Rays Kinda Make Me Go Crazy... so im updating this again for that awesome guy who now i can officially call mine =D and i hope hes just as happy as i am and i wish i had more to write about but lately i havent really been able to come up with something worth reading about .. but whatever maybe eventually ...

Come on let me hold you, touch you, feel you, always

Current Mood: <3